I’ve been ill now since August 2009. That’s 10 months or so, at time of writing. I’ve had pills and potions, diets, X-Rays, examinations by multiple consultants, a sigmoidoscopy and so far, nothing. No idea what it is.
The doctors are sticking to a diagnosis of IBS, which essentially means they don’t know either, IBS being a sort of catch-all term for any problem in that general area. The problems initially started as persistent diarrhoea, eventually though that subsided to be replaced with abdominal pain, which slowly grew worse and worse. My sides hurt, by lower abdomen hurts, just under my ribs hurt and my kidneys hurt. I’ve been taking codeine every 4 hours for almost 3 months or so now for the pain (it still hurts, but at least it hurts less) and I haven’t been able to sleep properly (even temazepam is having no effect whatsoever on my sleep patterns).
I’ve been away from work for months, working from home because travel is too painful, walking at any speed for any amount of time more than a few minutes become agony. I’ve not left the house in months except to go to a doctor or hospital appointment. Lifting things like a full 2l bottle or a kettle hurt. Hell, sometimes (depending on when I last took a painkiller) just pushing open the doors at home hurts.
As you might expect, this has caused all sorts of problems. Things aren’t ideal with work (and they have been incredibly helpful and understanding and I’m ashamed to say I haven’t kept them in the loop as much as I should have done, considering how good they’ve been about the whole situation) and I’m getting depressed by it all – being in pain all the time, being tired all the time and never going outside and not even being able to open a stubborn bottle for yourself tend to get you down after a while, especially when every single examination, doctor and consultant say there is nothing wrong as far as they can tell and slap me with a meaningless IBS label which does not help you at all.
I’m just tired, both figuratively and literally. I just want it to end.